Here and Now

A friend of mine suggested writing a letter to myself for exactly how I am now, how i'm feeling and then in a year see how far I've come.

Dear Georgia

It's very odd writing to myself. I'm sure when I look back on this someday I'll laugh at how hopelessly awkward I am, and probably will always be. It's not been a great few days really.

I just found out about Kippy (bit painful to write the whole name tbh)  and It really really sucks. I've always had pride in myself that I never really ever get told no. I remember taking my driving test, failing and then not driving for 6 months because you were so angry at yourself.

And I feel like that now, I hate failing let alone at something that should have been so easy and perfect. Maybe my judgement of character is off.

I don't want to dwell cause i'll just work myself up more to be honest. I start work in an hour and have no energy to go. I just wanna curl up, put on netflix and mope. Instead I'm playing Let it go and singing it at the top of my lungs hoping it'll cheer me up.

Everything is going alright with the love life. Matt's wonderful and brilliant and just being his usual self, despite the fact he's having a harder time than most at the moment. It's frustrating that I can't be more help or can't see him cause we've both kinda spent all our money. whoop.

My overdraft has taken a battering, but I keep reminding myself to breathe and it'll be okay, I'm a student, i' gunna be poor or spend money I don't have, I'm just a  bit gutted I didn't have as much as I thought I did.

The no smoking is going well, though after todays news I really want a cigarette, it'll be curious to see if I manage to prevent myself. I can't guess what the future me is doing by now?

I can't think of what else to say. Not a lot has changed apart from I feel a bit not me at the moment, hopefully I'll fix that after christmas, I'll feel like i have purpose and doing ym course wasn't such a massive mistake. I could re-do my uni years but then again.... is it worth it?

I'm majorly paniccing about my future. I have no idea what I want to do with anything. I'm praying I get an answer soon. That would be nice. It might help me get some sleep, 4 hours a night is not helping me!

Until You read this Future me!

G x

My boycott of Pizza Hut.

hello hello hello everyone!

I'm sorry, I've been gone quite a while but I've had possibly the busiest two weeks of my life! Being back at University is one of those things, suddenly everything is happening at once and I've been left a bit flustered!
However, I'll try and narrow it down a little bit!

My flat mate broke her arm, the poor thing! another drunken night where she was picked up, dropped and fractured her radius in the process, daft woman! I forgot how much A & E freaks me out! However moving forwards I was lucky enough to get a chance to see Les Miserables in the West End on Wednesday!
It was superb i have never felt so alive after leaving a theatre, the musical was amazing and I must admit, despite my concerns Carrie Fletcher was utterly magnificent as Eponine, she was beautiful and perfect and I couldn't flaw one single thing about her!

After leaving the theatre, my two flatmates and myself decided on going to pizza hut as a treat after being so good in healthy eating habits for 2 weeks! We arrived, were left waiting for 15 minutes before finally being seated. Once we were seated we had a table of 5 put on a table of four next to us, meaning one of the gentlemen was practically sat on my lap! My mood began to sink fairly quickly.
After 20 minutes waiting, my friend finally asked if we could have our food and drink order taken
(time is currently at 45 minutes, not even received a drink) the girl then preceded to tell me that she can't take order.

-pause-

I understand what it is like on a busy shift in a restaurant, my job is as a waitress, what i don't understand is how someone can be so rude and disregarding of your feelings as a paying guest within the establishment. It made me angrier.

-play-

finally 10 minutes after she said she had gone to get someone to take our order, the grumpiest man on the planet took our order and left, hopefully putting it through. May I add that at this stage, the table next to us ordered their meal ten minutes after us, therefore; why on earth did they receive their starter before us?
We waited another 10 minutes before finally having enough and walking out. I was raging by this point and wanted to kill someone!

I intend to pay good money when i go into any food establishment, what i don't expect is to be treated like i'm invisible, even if it is busy!

Rant over guys!

G