Ten things rocking my world

Thats right, just a  quick update to tell you about ten things rocking my world right now! I'm trying to be more positive as a person and open myself up to new experiences so!!!
1) I spent far too much money yet now own burgundy Converse, an oversized orange jumper and a little blue skirt.. I COULD LOOK LIKE AMELIA POND IN 5 MINS. (Also, wait for my next haul post.... it's mega!)
2) I Have wonderful friends right now. After a good life clear out it's always nice to revaluate friendships, and realise just how many you have!
3) The Boyf/Bae/SillyMan/Cuddlemonster... and i'm sure he will appreciate reading that. You rock baby!
4) SWEET POTATO... PUMPKIN.....AUTUMNAL FOODS! I love autumn, especially the foods that become available.
5) Possibility of working for Wild Packs next summer... (again... wait for the blog post!)
6) Biting of Nails has decreased! Although weak as hell, my nails are slowly getting there, my biting has almost stop... unless I get a cheeky grabby bit...
7) Christmas! It's getting closer... I'm excited... let me get my tinsel out and sparkle up all of your lives!
8) Uni Work! Despite a slight panic attack the middle of last week, I have a renewed love fr my subject and I am going to smash it this year! I can just feel it!
9) Cooking! I swear I should write down some of my recipes because they are so freaking good I love cooking, I love tasting and quite frankly its such a massive stress reliever for me!
10) The Office US. Because I still love it.... And yet I have watched series 1-7 a billion times (love you netflix....)
MORE UPDATES SOON!
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Homesickness.

I don't often get home sick. I don't see it as an emotion in my radar (amongst the limited few I choose to display. However I've been noticing some nights recently that I just lie in bed and for some reason I just don't sleep because it's so overwhelmingly choking when I realise that to be homesick you need to have a home. 

I love my hometown, again the use of the word home is an odd way to refer to it. I could re-label it as the place I grew up which is not only much more appropriate but also a better description. 

It's sunny and beautiful and is part of England's coastal line. It's full of beautiful views, many fond memories and contains some of my favourite people in the world. 

Considering my upbringing was anything but conventional, I've realised recently that I am extremely envious of people who can talk about their childhood and all the wonders they had growing up in a full family without much bother. 

Don't get me wrong, the way I was raised wasn't necessarily bad, a working class family where I was raised primarily by my father has it's perks I guess. But i listen to friends talking about amazing childhood holidays or massive family moments and I've come to the conclusion that by conditioning, I am predominantly a lonely person. 

Again, this isn't a bad thing, however I definitely think it's taking it's toll at the moment. I want to go home, see my best friends and try and recapture what it was that made me so happy about a daft little town where everyone lives in everyones pockets. I wanna see my dad and quite frankly, waking up at 7am to shite news is never a good thing. 

What I think is the worst of this situation, is i am now stuck with the feeling constantly that everyone I encounter is at some point going to leave, and that really is a shit realisation. 

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Feeling a little lost; i want to be celebrating but now i have a whole new fresh batch of fears brewing. 

Please dont let it all be for nothing.