Ten things rocking my world

Thats right, just a  quick update to tell you about ten things rocking my world right now! I'm trying to be more positive as a person and open myself up to new experiences so!!!
1) I spent far too much money yet now own burgundy Converse, an oversized orange jumper and a little blue skirt.. I COULD LOOK LIKE AMELIA POND IN 5 MINS. (Also, wait for my next haul post.... it's mega!)
2) I Have wonderful friends right now. After a good life clear out it's always nice to revaluate friendships, and realise just how many you have!
3) The Boyf/Bae/SillyMan/Cuddlemonster... and i'm sure he will appreciate reading that. You rock baby!
4) SWEET POTATO... PUMPKIN.....AUTUMNAL FOODS! I love autumn, especially the foods that become available.
5) Possibility of working for Wild Packs next summer... (again... wait for the blog post!)
6) Biting of Nails has decreased! Although weak as hell, my nails are slowly getting there, my biting has almost stop... unless I get a cheeky grabby bit...
7) Christmas! It's getting closer... I'm excited... let me get my tinsel out and sparkle up all of your lives!
8) Uni Work! Despite a slight panic attack the middle of last week, I have a renewed love fr my subject and I am going to smash it this year! I can just feel it!
9) Cooking! I swear I should write down some of my recipes because they are so freaking good I love cooking, I love tasting and quite frankly its such a massive stress reliever for me!
10) The Office US. Because I still love it.... And yet I have watched series 1-7 a billion times (love you netflix....)
MORE UPDATES SOON!
G 

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Then and Now

Although I'm sure my blog does not maintain a hard fellowship of readers, I find this the best way to address myself and the current issues that resolve around my life. Apologies if that is really really boring to most! 

I'd like to think back to myself a year ago. 19 year old Georgia isn't all that different to twenty year old Georgia. I would have just embarked on University and possibly one of the most emotionally torturous few months of my life. I had really high hopes that I would study every night and my aim was to lose weight. . 

Instead I gained the ever known freshers 15, I barely studied at all, in fact I think I gave up on lectures towards the end of the year. I had a reliable job at home, but due to screwing myself over I found myself starting university with no money. I barely drank and was horrendously awkward around people because I cared far to much about what everyone else thought as opposed to my own opinion. 

In the same way that Emma Watson recently rocked the UN and opened up the issues surrounding gender equality, I've learnt to be more honest about myself. 

I know that this year matters. I'm in my way home to spend the afternoon writing notes, catching up on reading and hoping to god I got away with missing two lectures last week.(I probably didn't). I've got wiser. 

Although my love life as such is a vast improvement to what it was a year ago, I'm still worried I could scare Matt away, that my grumpiness and defence mechanisms will be too much one day, but then I have also got through my body issues and can quite happily look like shit and know he still loves me at the end of it and is willingly offering to spend the rest of his old man days with me. 

I'be finally decided enough is enough of making excuses and have changed my diet. As a result I have lost half a stone... And counting. 

In a year I have become a different person, more studious, more accepting, more relaxed and quite frankly a better person. There are still things on my list I need to fix. I need to start consciously putting my finances into place and thinking about my future. 

Overall, I just need to keep adapting and letting myself grow older , wiser and better. 

Should be easy...

Only cause I know you'll read this...

Despite dying from what feels like the black death, i'm alone at the flat today, which is horrible. BUT Matt is home is roughly an hour & im quite excited. 

We were lazing around last night before bed, talking about reading & other pointless topics when i remembered something. 

The things we have been through in the last two years massively outweigh what some couples go through in forty. The fact I can come out the otherside and still say i love him more than i ever could have imagine loving another human being still startles me. 

In my inbox i have a lot of his old messages still saved to my phone. I read them all today and they completely overwhelmed me. I'm not quite sure how I got so lucky and how everything panned out just how I wanted but madly enough he was right. ( dont tell him i said that)  

Despite the fact I'm going back London bound next week, Im holding strong in the faith that everything will be fine, that we can get theough this. 

After all 6 minths is a walk in the park compared to two years. 

❤️

Relationships 3.0

I should become a guru in this shit. I've had just about every hell thrown at me in the last 5 years & have still managed to come out (just) sane. 

Trust is the foundation of anything & everything in a relationship. Losing that trust can result in agonizing disaster. Unless you ignore your brain & follow your heart. 

I look around at all of the relationships around me, some old & some new. Some people are still in the honeymoon phase whete everything is exciting & dangerous and the thrill overides any genuine emotion whereas some of them are people who have been through hell & back and stuck together dispite better judgement. 

I dont have many answers on how to handles a crisis. 

All i do know is that a key to a successful relationships is the constant run of little surprises to each other, making each ither laugh & never letting the physical flame die out. Because thats when people look elsewhere and grown envious of the idea of grass being greener on the other side. 

My brain torrents through ten billions tons  of shite at a massive rate at the most inconvienient times however the one thing i find useful is imagining your life without the other, if you feel nothing, then run. If you do, then try and salvage. 

Relationships are not quick fixes. My favourite thibg my gran ever said to me was 

Georgia, remember only the best things are worth fighting for. 

I miss my gran. 

The Importance of Bra's, Sports Federation & Date night

I haven't really blogged in a while, I've had a bit of a busy few weeks so I'll start wight he low down into my life first & then actually move on to the topic of today!

I'm back 'home' in Weymouth at the moment, back at the pub and saving frantically for my new mac & updating my life savings. (sadly they diminish every single term but now i'm really aiming at budgeting and staying on top of things!) I used 'home' in little quotations because I'm not in my family home, nope i'm actually living with my OH at the moment. I've had the 'oh wait till your first fight' conversation repeated beaten into me by just about everyone i know but it hasn't happened yet! Wooo for being successful. 

Being back at the pub is interesting, I forgot how hard the hours can be on you, mentally and physically. I had to be actually woken up after this bank holiday at nearly 3pm, I haven't slept like that in what feels like years!!! However I have the positive of an (finally) updated key to management position and a pay rise which has been sweet as a fuuucccck. 

Now. 

I'm a rather curvy (chubby) lady, and that has come with the issue of big boobs! 

I went to Bravissimo in Covent Garden a month or so ago and my friend forced me into being fitted properly. I have no issues with being fitted or having other ladies copping a feel when it's for the benefit of my comfort, but I don't particularly like it because it's always been bad news. I was originally two years ago a C, got refitted and came out a DD. 

You can therefore imagine my surprise when I was remeasured that day and came out a 36FF. THIRTY SIX DOUBLE BLOODY F. This has left me in a pickle, many underwear shops don't actually fit us larger ladies. So i've had to shop online. 

Bravissimo & Boux Avenue are two of the best shops I have found, they fit all sizes and they are actually comfy nice bra's! It's amazing how good you can feel when you have the right support so GET YOURSELF MEASURED! 

I've been a busy bee as a whole, and had my climbing clubs sports federation event, despite being royally mugged off for a £35 round which only included two drinks & 10 sambuccas, it was an amazing night, I'd luckily found a little dress off of the internet and it suited me, admittedly i've been really bad with my eating recently so it wasn't perfect but i felt comfy which I think is the main thing! 

I won't bore you too much with the details but I did win a little certificate for my contribution to climbing this year which is a massive bonus! 

Finally. Date Night. 

I've never been with anyone who has ever really thought to 'treat me' or take me out, so tonight I have adequately named it date night. i have no idea where we are going or what we are doing in particular, however it's going to be adorable and with two days off hopefully we'll be doing some climbing in the next few days as well! still all positives and I'm a happy little bunny at the moment. P.s he's complained that i dont ahow him off enough; so lady and gentlemen for your eyes only...

AND. IVE FINISHED UNI FOR THE YEAR! WOOOOOO!!!

Year one, over and done with, will probably do a summary of my favourite moments and fingers crossed get a youtube video done at some point! 

G x

Whats, Ifs and Maybes.

I've had a lovely weekend for anyone who pays the slightest bit of attention to my rambling, I got to go home, and spend the most awesome weekend with my friends and as he was introduced to many my 'better half'.
We did nearly got robbed ... and when i say nearly I mean we did get robbed and merely were lucky enough to find everything which had been stolen apart from a Purse. The meal was good, the dancing was good and quite frankly everything was good good good. On the sunday, I managed to get some time alone with one of my friends who I then spent grilling about his life seeing as he is of the majority an enigma of a person and I was completely satisfied with my answers. It made me think though; If I could have the knowledge I have now at times in the past where it could have helped having hindsight, would I have made different choices.

I've spent the good part of a few days thinking about this, and my conclusion... isn't really a conclusion. I have many regrets of things I have seemed to have done in a relatively short time. I regret letting some people out of my life more than others and there are choices I have made which every once in a while make me think about my entire view on life.

I don't mean to hurt people with my choices, but seem to periodically, I think about whether or not I've made the right decision in a lot of things but All i can hope is i'll get some kind of redemption and one day I'll be entirely happy with everything in my life!

On a happier note, My cousin has had her baby woo! sadly I can't go and visit due to having no bloody money so instead I'll grit my teeth, send a card and wait patiently for my final student loan to come through!!!

Till next time...

g x

Traipsing a National Park

It's not very often that I come across a vision which literally leaves me breathless. Usually I'll make a joke or not notice it at all, however over the weekend I got treated to not only a lovellllly dinner, but also to one of the most beautiful evenings I've ever had. 

I had a lovely special visit from a very dear person to me over the weekend and unfortunately overslept and didn't go climbing which was the original plan! Instead I was taken to Epsom. 
Obvs there is a big horse racing thing that goes down there every year, so I was expecting pretty great things... which I received! Epson Downs (If you ever get the chance) Gives you a delightful view of the London in its entirety from afar... and it is also a dogging site. (Not from personal experience) 

Afterwards we left for the real amazement which is Box Hill National Park. I got to watch the Sun set over the most beautiful view on the planet and I felt completely at peace! Which is rare for a woman whose head goes at a bazillion miles and hour! Sharing a moment like that is something I doubt I will ever forget, so just as a remembrance... here are some lovely views I had. 

IN OTHER NEWS. 

I've had such a busy start to the week, I caught up on 16 pages of notes today, and I'm going to spend tomorrow afternoon planning one of my many assignments I have due in in the next few months, so i may be a bit slow. Hopefully I'm going to try and squeeze in a youtube video at some point (not that many people watch them BUT STILL) and also start working on my own private project! I want to create a short film of some kind but so far my thought process is close to nil! 

If i haven't mentioned it before, I have an official ball coming up, which means I had to buy a dress which was not too expensive, but also glamorous! Thank god for the internet and specifically Goddiva an online store which honestly has some of the most beautiful dresses I have ever seen which are perfect for event which are important but not so important you want to break the bank over them! Plus with a 15% student discount I can't go wrong!! 

I'm back on the health kick now after a few weeks of on/off eating, so today consisted of an spring onion and red pepper omelette, Porridge and then home made low fat taco's for dinner :) 

G x

Temper temper

Its utterly infuriating when you put your heart and soul into something, and for some reason it doesn't seem to be working the same, especially if it was meant to benefit you.

I was always told as a child to think about number one, to only worry about myself, but then i grew up selflessly wanting to help just about everyone i could. 

About nine out of ten time i've had it thrown back in my face and it's the most heartbreaking things ever. I get told that I'm fairly cynical, which i agree with; however its because every so often my faith in people disappears and I just stop caring. 

Apologies about the angstyness of this! Very pissed off and mentally and physically exhausted. And I have a test tomorrow. 

Brill. 

❤️

It makes me ridiculously happy just sat with him watching him do his work whilst i watch independance day. 

I will marry him one day. 

Home for valentines

 quite enjoy valentines day, even if I spend it alone, this year consisted of a mystery card, a Terry's chocolate orange & a Chinese with my dad! My lion is away this year, still I'm 19 I have plenty more valentines days left :) 

The mystery card freaked me a little bit! I've never seen myself and desirable, so I've only had a handful of boyfriends so it basically leaves the options that my mother has most likely sent it to me. however I can't get my head around the writing inside. 

"Who doesn't deserve recognition on valentines day" 

I have no idea what that even means, maybe I'm reading far to much into it, but it had kisses at the end... And the address had my middle name (spelt correctly) but not my postcode!!! Madness. 

Moving on, I'm actually at home at the moment, which is awesome, some kick back time, so I can chill out and do a few things with my dad who is turning old next week at the ripe old age of 51!! Aha! 

I made him a Dorset Apple cake for his birthday... Of which he has already eaten half!! Hopefully I'll be uploading a new YouTube video soon, no idea what on, but I'm half tempted to get some asks on tumblr or even messages on here so people can offer some suggestions. 

Happily I've stuck to my two New Years resolutions this year( I made some in the end!) and I've started reading more and I'm slowly getting Healthy and beginning to lose weight! For anyone whose anytime if there are two books you should read this year, please make it The Fault In Our Stars ( John Green) and Divergent ( Veronica Roth) two books which are being made into what I can already see as being big blockbuster films this year!!!! 

Anyway, this was merely a stop in I'll get back to writing my fanfiction soon hopefully!!! 

G 

Addiction

addiction

əˈdɪkʃ(ə)n/

noun

1.

the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance or activity.

Cheers for that one Google. 

I don't ever think of myself addicted to anything. I mean, I'm a smoker (quitting one my e-cig arrives may i add), I drink, I've eaten a lot of junk food in the past, but by no means would I ever think of myself as addicted to these things. 

In the controversial debate, Matthew Perry referred to addiction being an allergy. I don't really see it like that either, though i can understand his view. 

I think emotions play a much bigger role in the things you are addicted to. I'd consider my significant other as something I am addicted to. The intensity of one look leaves me craving more, and reduces me to my basic human instinct. He's very.. passionate and free and fun loving and I'm usually slightly envious that I can't be like that more often. But he is one of a kind and he means more than the world to me. again... addicted. 

I've began to notice I hold a addiction to literature. All kinds, books, autobiographies, web entries, fan fiction or even just a simple quote. I've become more emotionally invested in some fictional characters than I have about the passing of a relative. A bit harsh I guess. 

But i think literature does that for a reason, to completely immerse yourself in a world which is imaginary is such a beautiful gift and one of the biggest things I miss about my childhood. 

I'm addicted to the feeling of completing a book, of the sorrow you feel that you cannot relive that adventure, I refer to it as a Book Hangover but other people may have many other versions. 

To round this little thought process up, I don't think i could ever view addiction as a bad thing, not personally. I think addiction is what keeps you alive, whether it is a love or even your favourite fictional place. 

I lied. I have one addiction at the moment. 

Save Rock and Roll: FALL OUT BOY (2013)

I wish i could re listen to this album and hear it like i did the first time, its crept beneath my skin and is possibly the best thing to come out of the music industry in 2013! 

I want to see your animal side. 

reminds me of lions. ha. 

G